32: Freedom

Doesn't it just suck?
When you see someone you really love with tears falling from their eyes?
And you can see nothing but the word "O-U-C-H" right there.
Spelled clearly. On their eyes...
And all you could do is sit beside them, repeat saying "It's gonna be okay." "Don't worry." "Never mind him." "Never mind her." "It'll be over soon." blah blah blah again and again when you know it just won't make them stop from feeling hurt?

"you love too much riL. and there's nothing wrong with it. just take things easily. =("

--Fivi's exact words.

Yeah maybe she's right. I do. I do love too much. But is that my fault?
I was born this way, and I don't regret that fact.
It just stabs me in the heart, you know. Everytime I see these people hurt. Those people I call FRIENDS.

What am I to do? No matter how hard I try, I just CAN'T LET those words escape from my lips.
The words are there, ready to be spoken.

"Why do you care so much about (insertnamehere)? I'm the one who's always been here."

I don't know why. Everytime I try to speak, something holds me back.
Fear? Of being ignored? Yea maybe that's it. Maybe I'm too scared to hear those words.

"Because I love (insertnamehere)more than you. Don't you get it?"

Haha. I do get it. Maybe I'm just too weak to accept it. That I don't possess as much love as I have for you.
So now you know how much of a coward I am.
Good for you.

So now you know how weak I am when it comes to friends.

Keep hurting them and I might just KILL YOU. I swear I will.

Leave them alone or you'll find yourself lying on the floor, out of breath.
Hell yeah, I LOVE THEM THAT MUCH.
THIS MUCH.

I dedicate this post to those people I call FRIENDS.
I know you know who you guys are. I love you all. Bow :3

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